How I began to hate this school?

It's all began when I was in form 1.....It's a fresh year for all the student's got into high school....Everyone seems to be so happy.....and so I am....Then, I tried to make some new friends....it's just halfway......they went away to another group and thought I was too boring....Then, I'm alone.....now, some of them were same tuition with me.....they really got a very BAD MOUTH as they gossipping about me with some of another girls that never know me.....WHY EVERY OF THIS F***ING FORM 3'S STUDENTS CAN'T BOTHER MY LIFE?????? THEY JUST MAKE MY SCHOOL'S LIFE TERRIBLE, NOT ENJOY...... It's make my whole life boring.....see their face a day and another day and another day......Life is like that.....If I could transfer to another school, my BEST HOPES ARE I WANT TO TURN A NEW LEAF AND NEVER SEE MY 'PAST DISASTER IN THAT SCHOOL' FOREVER.......

PMR

PMR is around the corner.....and so what???? This harsh world....it's really harsh.....Full of obstacles and much more....If I could get out from this problem, hardship and things that are really difficult that I had to face it.......makes me more confuse....indeed.....If my head wouldn't think about this....and focus to PMR.....my life will be better and wouldn't suck like this.....Seriously, I hate all the form 3's students in my school.....they are much irritating me....If they will be never exist in my life, (wherever I go), surely, my life would be happy as I'm in the heaven.....Oh, how I hate that silly school soo much....Now, my focus to PMR....but sometimes, I can never stand it....Oh, girls, in that school, I wish they never born.....They makes me sick......They just think they are 'perfect'........They never want to be a friend to me....They just think that I am a nerdy type, loser and a blur girl.......Study, study and study.....I hope GOD will make me not seeing that make me depressed as I will take my PMR very soon.....I hope I will never take this thing into my head.....I hope so

Wandering

I'm wandering in my teen's life.....who am I??? I'm still searching.....Today, I feel very upset because everyone seems to be happy today because they had a friend.........And I am not.....No one... And I really hate that school so much!! I'm having traumatic in that school!! I always blame to myself...I hope one day, as soon as possible, I can move out from that school......I REALLY hope....And, the most, all my past......will never come back....will never happen again.....forever....If God's will, I will be better soon......better from this 'liver disease'.......9 years I had to suffer this type of disease.......the antidote is, I must forget all what had happened to me.....my 'suffer life'..... Seriously, I can't stand this anymore......I feel like I'm going crazy......My head spinning around and around......just like a clock....And I don't want to wandering anymore...to search who am I? The deepen I go, the more paranoid that I could be....I think, I must be myself...... A new person with a good potential......I must remember one and only thing, "Nobody cares about you....But, you, yourself must care to yourself"

Friends and school

Friends????? Yeah, as a teen, friends are the most important part of me...but, for me, as I've already observed.....many of my friends are useless....When they're having problems, they came to me....then, when they are happy, they just went away....just like a wind....It's a sad part for me.....Classmates.....I hate going to school everyday but it's a must.......It's because of friends......When I say 'hi' to some of my classmates, they look at me with full of hatred and weird.......I'm alone at school.....I ask to myself, "When can I be as them? Laughing, having fun together?".......They talked to me rudely as I'm too quiet at school.....I'm going to school, I learned and I had to go through this obstacles at school because I obeyed what my parent asked me to...I just want this over....God, please take me out from all this because I just want to happy.....I know you heard my pray......Amin.....