How I began to hate this school?

It's all began when I was in form 1.....It's a fresh year for all the student's got into high school....Everyone seems to be so happy.....and so I am....Then, I tried to make some new friends....it's just halfway......they went away to another group and thought I was too boring....Then, I'm alone.....now, some of them were same tuition with me.....they really got a very BAD MOUTH as they gossipping about me with some of another girls that never know me.....WHY EVERY OF THIS F***ING FORM 3'S STUDENTS CAN'T BOTHER MY LIFE?????? THEY JUST MAKE MY SCHOOL'S LIFE TERRIBLE, NOT ENJOY...... It's make my whole life boring.....see their face a day and another day and another day......Life is like that.....If I could transfer to another school, my BEST HOPES ARE I WANT TO TURN A NEW LEAF AND NEVER SEE MY 'PAST DISASTER IN THAT SCHOOL' FOREVER.......

PMR

PMR is around the corner.....and so what???? This harsh world....it's really harsh.....Full of obstacles and much more....If I could get out from this problem, hardship and things that are really difficult that I had to face it.......makes me more confuse....indeed.....If my head wouldn't think about this....and focus to PMR.....my life will be better and wouldn't suck like this.....Seriously, I hate all the form 3's students in my school.....they are much irritating me....If they will be never exist in my life, (wherever I go), surely, my life would be happy as I'm in the heaven.....Oh, how I hate that silly school soo much....Now, my focus to PMR....but sometimes, I can never stand it....Oh, girls, in that school, I wish they never born.....They makes me sick......They just think they are 'perfect'........They never want to be a friend to me....They just think that I am a nerdy type, loser and a blur girl.......Study, study and study.....I hope GOD will make me not seeing that make me depressed as I will take my PMR very soon.....I hope I will never take this thing into my head.....I hope so

Wandering

I'm wandering in my teen's life.....who am I??? I'm still searching.....Today, I feel very upset because everyone seems to be happy today because they had a friend.........And I am not.....No one... And I really hate that school so much!! I'm having traumatic in that school!! I always blame to myself...I hope one day, as soon as possible, I can move out from that school......I REALLY hope....And, the most, all my past......will never come back....will never happen again.....forever....If God's will, I will be better soon......better from this 'liver disease'.......9 years I had to suffer this type of disease.......the antidote is, I must forget all what had happened to me.....my 'suffer life'..... Seriously, I can't stand this anymore......I feel like I'm going crazy......My head spinning around and around......just like a clock....And I don't want to wandering anymore...to search who am I? The deepen I go, the more paranoid that I could be....I think, I must be myself...... A new person with a good potential......I must remember one and only thing, "Nobody cares about you....But, you, yourself must care to yourself"