Wandering

I'm wandering in my teen's life.....who am I??? I'm still searching.....Today, I feel very upset because everyone seems to be happy today because they had a friend.........And I am not.....No one... And I really hate that school so much!! I'm having traumatic in that school!! I always blame to myself...I hope one day, as soon as possible, I can move out from that school......I REALLY hope....And, the most, all my past......will never come back....will never happen again.....forever....If God's will, I will be better soon......better from this 'liver disease'.......9 years I had to suffer this type of disease.......the antidote is, I must forget all what had happened to me.....my 'suffer life'..... Seriously, I can't stand this anymore......I feel like I'm going crazy......My head spinning around and around......just like a clock....And I don't want to wandering anymore...to search who am I? The deepen I go, the more paranoid that I could be....I think, I must be myself...... A new person with a good potential......I must remember one and only thing, "Nobody cares about you....But, you, yourself must care to yourself"